QUICK POST

A quick post. Haven't blogged in five long months. What a shame. @_@

I'm planning to do something on my blog though, I guess I'll make this a personal one. I think I can handle pressure more swiftly than other people do, but not having deadlines is cool with me. That's the reason I fell out of interest in blogging, a blogger wants to nominate me for a weekly blog recognition or something but I declined lol. Missed opportunity, yeah right, kick my butt.

Well I could care less about it, I don't give a damn about blogging anymore. If this is as far as I'd get then fine, lol.



CIAO!

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NO WAY I'M QUITTING

LOL.. yeah right,. I'm back.. just some random post, I've got nothin' to do this semestral break so I'm here to blog a little..

Been doing good lately, I guess.. Except for love life, still, LOL.. I'll find someone soon.. :D

Don't have a great scoop to make me go crazy to blog again so 'till next time!

ciao!

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YOU CAUGHT ME

It's been a while now since my last post. I've tried to keep myself drowned in computer games and other stuffs so I could rid my brain from thinking too much. But why did I focused on computer games instead of blogging? Well, not much of a big thing. I just knew it that the moment I'd start blogging, it would be about me, big time.



I always thought of myself as someone matured enough to face rejection, loneliness, and other stuffs that usually makes people go "emo". And by emo, i didn't mean guys on skinny jeans and eyeliners. I meant the worse ones. The ones who think he/she is the most ill-fated creature in the universe. I always hated them. But after some twist of events, I think I understand how they feel, cause I myself felt the same thing. Feeling alone and stuff like that, being rejected, being taken for granted. Felt all of it. It doesn't change my view, still. I still hate them. Hate myself for being one. Yeah whatever. Put a sock on it.




I really don't want to be particular with why or who made me finally perceive that I am getting emotional. But sometimes, my mouth speaks beyond my ability to control it, and it relieves me a little. I hope and pray that she won't be able to read this, cause the least I can do for her now is shut up and free her from guilt.

Yah you've read right. Never told her I was hurting. Never told her that whenever I'm with her, my heart aches. Never told her that when she needs me, I feel taken for granted. Never told her that I was hoping we could be. Can't be helped I guess. It is my fault anyway. I was too idealistic and thought that we could be friends for now and make-out in the future when both of us are ready. When I was about to officially tell her how I feel, it was too late. I didn't get the chance, cause her "significant other" is with her that night. The look on my eyes were like, 'I want to tell you so bad I love you, but I can't, cause obviously something is happening between the two of you'. Only one of her friends noticed how gloomy i look and guessed correctly why.

If I want to move on, I need to disallow myself from seeing her. And it's not as easy as it looks. Whenever she asks me a favor, I can't decline. I want to, but I can't. I just can't. It won't matter if I have exams or reports the next day, I have to get to her and help her when she needs something or wanna go out somewhere.

At the climax of my emo-ing, I was able to write something, some sort of a song i guess?

You Caught My Heart

You weren't my first love
You weren't my first kiss
You found me with a heart broken
A heart who thought, he couldn't love again.

I didn't love you at first sight
I didn't care how much I've hurt you
But somehow things are change
You caught me off guard, and you made me feel that I could love again,

Is it me..
Or is it that every time I see you
You seem to glow brighter than before
Is it me..
Or is everything in you
Beautiful?

Like a mouse on a trap
I risked my heart for a tiny chunk of happiness
And when I thought I got the price
It's when i learned..

I don't know how you do it
Every time I see you
I feel the love coming back
It was like..

You caught my heart...

It's not much, and it won't mean anything to anyone else cause I wrote this only for one person. If you could make it into a song then good. You'll take credit.

I started posting stuffs like this, so I guess while I'm still at it, my readers(if they are any), would have to bear seeing my face on my post and figure out what's my problem.



God bless..

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WALLET MISSING

yey! we got a new dog!

his name is toby.. he is kim's half-brother LOL..




kim is always jealous of him.. really funny watching them play together and piss each other off LOL..



last week's a bit toxic, i did exams on electronics, eng'g materials, and differential equations.. i think the exam on electronics was as hard as DE.. i wasn't able to review for the earlier it felt i'd fail.. DX..

just a while ago, my classmates and i are at another classmate's house.. we got four hours vacant time so we stayed there for a while.. it's where i did our homework, a half-wave rectifier,. it's just a prototype i guess, since our professor instructed us to use terminal strips instead of printed circuit boards..

and also, i was envious of classmate's upright piano.. it is a black kawai.. DX.. played there a bit, i grabbed the opportunity to play on a piano that isn't out tune like mine.. XD..

gotta go now.. ciao!..

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WHITE LIGHTS GOING TO WHERE?

it's Monday, so i have this Monday headache again.. school was sooooo uncool.. DX.. 'twas so hot, and the subjects are getting on my nerves.. really gave me a headache.. and did i mention how uncool is school? XD..

two days ago, some of friends and i went to SM Pampanga to watch a movie and hang-out a bit.. played some piano in Lyric, fooled around at the arcade, and watched Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen..



***WARNING! spoiler alert..***

love the movie, but there is just too many holes on the plot.. also noticed some mistakes like sudden appearances of characters in transitions.. and i also thought they spoiled the ending.. Optimus was too strong at the end, that he doesn't need anything but sheer power to win.. not as thrilling as his first fight with Megatron and Starscream, the one when he died.. and what i really hate is that they leave me no clue of where the hell did my favorite twin has gone too at the end.. DX..

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when i got home, my sis asked me if i can come with them to Cabanas to eat and have coffee.. i was not really in shape at that time, i was already exhausted and i still need to do my homework, so i declined.. but when her friend, Jen, did the asking, i could not resist.. XD.. she really means a lot to me, even now that she is taken.. ='[..

they ate at a coffe shop/restaurant, after meeting up with yet two of my sis' friends... or something like that.. dun remember the name of the resturant.. they're too many of it in there, and i dun have time to memorize them all.. XD.. only drank frap.. after they ate, we hanged-out a bit outside the chain of restaurants and bats.. we accidentally came across with an acquaintance so we overstayed there a bit, good thing we didn't scolded.. but thanks to him my sis realized she didn't paid part of our bill.. LOL.. pictures up next..



that was my sis and Jen..



now with Joy and Jeanne..



yours truly, with Jen.. XD..

Sunday, my siblings and i are supposed to go to my church together, for the first time ever.. but then, my mom said that we should stand by a bit and see if my other sis gives birth finally (she's been at the hospital for like, 4 or 5 days).. i was a bit pissed, but it went well, since my sis did gave birth that afternoon..



welcome to the world, baby Keira!.. =']

i dun remember blogging or even mentioning that we have a new dog.. she was given to us by one of a relatives, a cross breed of a poodle and japanese whatever-word-it-is.. i got a hold of my dad's laptop cause he asked me to fix it, so grab the opportunity to blog and take some pic with our dog... her name is Kim btw.. forgive my for my ugliness.. DX














and for the big finale..







brace yourselves..







it's gonna be tight..





there's gonna be extreme inhuman ugliness...







PRESTO!!! LOL LOL..




LOL LOL.. what the heck,.. i didn't realize i caught this ugly guy with his dog until i reviewed the pictures.. did something bit me? LOL..

ciao!

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LATE DAD'S DAY SNITCH

been sleeping for like, two and a half hours already? for some reasons, i feel so sleepy.. probably cause of the medicine i'm drinking.. school was okay, it's just so freakin' hot.. my hanky was literally soaked in sweat.. DX..

after school, we're supposed to go to do our regular, monday, bible study.. but our pastor's too tired so we weren't able to do so.. instead, we went to play some ball at South Supermarket.. XD.. it was fun, then we ate at Mcdonalds...

pictures..







father's day post extra.. last sunday, that's june 20, father's day, we lunched-out few of my relatives.. we ate at Party Land in Pampanga.. 'twas an all-you-can-eat diner, so i did it a lot LOL..

pictures again..

pardon me from my messy hair.. DX..





this is actually a bigger pic, cropped me.. i love REAL stolen pictures.. =']





bye now.. still not feeling well,.. ciao...

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THE SINGING BASSO CONTINUO

some of you are probably wondering where do i get some of my post's title.. like "Two-Faced Marcato" and "The Black and White Adagio".. if you know a bit about music, then you got it.. they are musical terms, classical musical terms to be exact.. in one of my early posts, i remember i said how much i love the piano, and music as well.. never had the chance to study new pieces and songs until just now.. i have been hooked up with online games and other things, that i don't get to practice.. i'm getting all rusty, but i was able to grease those rickety fingers again just now.. i played some song from my cellphone, made my ass to move.. it's 'Wait For You' by Elliot Yamin..

when i was around 13 or 14 maybe, i had my piano lessons.. after a few weeks, my sis and i stopped the lessons cause our teacher is in so much need of the a liter of mouthwash that we can't take it, LOL.. then 10 months ago, i decided to play again after being inspired with "Pachelbel's Canon in D"..

i tried to learn it at once, but i was a starter again at that time so it was really hard.. the piece is not easy for beginners, so i really pushed myself hard to learn it.. and since i need to learn the basics to play something advanced, i spend more time doing exercises..

my piano, an upright by yupangco, is old and rickety,. some of the keys sound screechy.. really made me sound bad, but i got no money to get it fixed.. DX.. if i could have myself a new piano, even an electric one, i would be more motivated to play..

here are my videos i uploaded in youtube..

this is my version of canon in d.. it's a combination of many arrangements..




this one is 'River Flows in You' by Yiruma.. btw, Yiruma is my fave pianist.. he frequently do dynamic changes when he plays and make it emotionally attracting and heartwarming,. the notes are overflowing when he is playing, and he can even change the intensity of his tone at his will to make it sound better.. my idol pianist.. XD


one more thing.. there is this one anime that has been an inspiration as well for me.. it is where most of my principles on music came.. presenting..

La Corda d'Oro Primo Passo!

i won't spoil it for you, just watch it.. if you love music, you'd love the anime.. cause the anime is music itself.. =']..

bye now!..

p.s

one liter of tears is really distracting.. can't think of other t.v. shows that made me think this much.. i feel so sad for Aya and Haruto DX

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THE TWO-FACED MARCATO

been back blogging for some weeks now, and still i enjoy doing these posts..

i just woke up from a long afternoon nap, if that can still be considered as a nap.. i played a bit of Grand Chase yester-night until 2AM,. but instead of sleeping at that moment i stopped, i opened my Mr. Mozilla and read some blog.. got me hooked up so i was up until 4.. can't stop myself from surfing too much.. DX..

i was peacefully sleeping 10 in the morning when my sis woke me up and told me to drive my other sis somewhere.. i got my ass up but not my head.. headache cause of blogging again.. XD..

we got there around 11 or something.. my sis went to the office to get something and i stayed at the car.. guess what.. some lady street sweepers started to fight.. i was thoroughly entertained.. XD.. it's about Melchor, who concubinates with Vilma and gives her 300 pesos everyday under the tree near the municipality.. LOL..

anyway, the reason i blogged today is so that i can evaluate my life as blogger for a few weeks.. found the advantages and disadvantage by reading other blogs and analyzing how much blogging affects their lifestyle.. here's what i've come up with..

BLOGGING IS A GREAT WAY TO EXPRESS HOW YOU FEEL. When you got no one to talk to, turn the freakin' laptop and start talking.

BLOGGING IS NOT ALWAYS THE BEST WAY TO EXPRESS HOW YOU FEEL. A blog is originally conceptualized as a type of website, usually maintained by an individual or a group with regular entries and posts. Now, it can also be considered as an online diary for other people. It's good, BUT TO THE EXTENT OF USING YOUR BLOG TO START A FIGHT WITH PEOPLE WHOM YOU KNOW PERSONALLY AND TALK AT THEIR BACKS IS SHEER MADNESS. yeah you can write anything on your blog, but remember that the best way to settle a commotion is by talking face to face with the person your not in good terms with..

that's it for now.. we're done with lesson number one.. LOL.. this is just my view from an idealistic-but-realistic(ironic eh?) perspective, so you're free to oppose.. XD

btw, i'm not bragging on how radical i think.. i am blogging on what i am learning.. =']

ciao!

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LIFE DO SUCK SOMETIMES..

yeah it does.. been busy lately, and serious with everything that's happening around me.. like i've said in my first ever post, i'm too soft-hearted for the extremity of my cunning-ness, and it's doing it's thing now.. i can't pretend i don't know anything about what's happening.. it's just.. tiring.. ever since i got my head straight to what i want to be in the future and not to what i want to be now, i restrained myself for doing things that will ruin that future.. i want everything and everyone around me be united, be it my comrades or my enemies.. i'm trying not to take sides,. i'm trying to defend each parties with each other.. and i;m trying so bad that i don't get myself a life that's fit for a normal and young guy like me.. there are times that i want to run from people's conversation so i would not overhear what they say so i could not involuntary give a damn about it and piss myself.. yeah i know that no family is perfect, and ours is far from being one,. i don't aim for us to be perfect.. i just want each of us to understand each other.. and i really don't understand why would it be hard to see how much i care for someone..

me? yeah i'm just a student.. some call me a kid.. some a brat.. still unexperience with many things.. but i try to act the other way.. i did my best to get the hearts of people love.. of my family.. AND MY WELL-EARNED RESPECT FROM THEM IS NOT LIKE A PENNY THAT YOU'LL STEP ON THE STREET.. i was grounded for going home late, and they didn't allow me to use the car the next days.. but since it's my fault, i paid the consequences.. my sins are my shame.. they are my shortcomings.. they are my mistakes.. AND A MISTAKE IS NOT WORTH THE PRICE IF YOU DIDN'T LEARN ANYTHING FROM IT.. they saw how i learned from it, and gained their trust again.. simple right? but if your heart is weak and is covered with desires and pride rather than your needs and responsibilities, it would hurt like hell.. AND IF THE TREND GOES ON, YOU ARE HASTILY BUILDING A WALL BETWEEN YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE.. AND AS THE WALL GOES HIGHER, IT BECOMES HARDER TO LOOK AND SEE WHAT IS ON THE OTHER SIDE.. WORST, IT BECOMES IMPOSSIBLE TO CROSS..

just like a wound, it can heal, but their still be and always be a scar that would remind you how much it hurt.. i tried to cover those scars with bandages of faith and trust for anyone who wounds me, but these bandages are not always permanent, and a little mischief from that someone ruins that trust and faith you have for him/her easily,. when you know you've done something that broke someone's heart, then be careful with your future actions, cause you've already made that heart brittle.. that makes it prone to further damage, whether be it small or large..

i'm frustrated, big time.. i'm the guy, and normally guys are the ones who give headaches to his family.. i feel for her, and it's hurts a lot how she forgets this one guy who is stupid enough to forgive her and trust her and give a hunderd percent of his faith to her again and again regardless of what happened.. even now, i don't feel mad at anyone.. i feel sorry for myself.. in a little while i'll forget what has happened and how i've hurt and look at her like a pure white sheet of paper with nothing but truth in it.. this irony i am going through drives me nuts, but fortunately, it gives me a way to grow maturely and pray to God and be closer to Him.. someday we will get past this i know..

anyway, i guess i've said enough.. this emo-at-the-moment kid is done blogging now..

ciao!

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GOT NO FREEDOM TO DO SO..

just got home.. i did some piano, then i figured out i should blog now.. XD.. went to the mall.. bought some stuff for school, a new shades (forgot to take a pic DX), and a naruto shirt with no sleeves.. wee!..

"cam whored" at the fitting room.. LOL.. the print is naruto shippuden.. my first naruto shirt! yey!..

an okay day, too bad my braces are always on the run to ruin it.. ate at Goldilocks, i didn't got myself full though..

the green one looks a bit not so delicious right? LOL.. it's good, i swear. it's the only thing i could eat now.. DX

went to Cdr-king to buy a memory card reader, then to my favorite stall there, Lyric.. XD.. they got all sorts of classical musical instruments, even cellos, and a classical bass..

i asked how much it'd cost to fix my piano, but no one there knew so they gave me a calling card.. played at the Yamaha upright piano there for a while..

then we came across to some of my mom's past acquaintances, so instead of commuting back to the car shop, we rode their Revo..

when we got home, we ate some Gonuts my sis bought for us,.. XD..

pizzas on the cover, but it's actually doughnuts..

my insatiable tummy is not done yet though, ate some peach with whipped cream.. double XD..

emo-ing..

i'm a bit pissed cause i can't post as much as i want now.. i need to be careful with what i put here.. we got a few problems, but we'll pull through.. please pray for us btw, thanks.. =']

ciao!

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WHO NEEDS A TOOTH FAIRY? I DO!

***edited***

after a few hours of nerve-racking operations, i survived.. it was hard, i thought it was the end., and seeing the blinding light in front of me, and the sound of the equipments got me on my knees.. kidding.. it's just braces.. did i got you? LOL..




it did hurt though.. i don't usually show my teeth on pictures, so you guys probably don't have a clue on what's under those red luscious lips.. LOL.. it's not ugly as hell, in fact, only two of my teeth are impacted.. i look fat when i show teeth, that's actually why i don't do so good in pictures LOL..

still adjusting to it.. it hurts a bit, and i know its gonna hurt big time this night.. gonna keep myself busy for the rest of the night or until i go to sleep so i don't feel the pain DX.. ..

done editing.. ciao!

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THE BLACK AND WHITE ADAGIO

finally i can blog now.. whoo.. it's been 2 days since i last blogged.. i was supposed to do my post yesterday about the santacruzan, but my headache's killing me.. DX.. because of that, i wasn't able to have a fruitful monday.. LOL.. i missed the basketball fight of our company, and i lost tracked of the tv shows i'm watchig.. DX.. at least i'm a lot better now.. =']

santacruzan again.. that's sunday, my sis and i are in the "sagala" again,. this time around, she was my partner, and her title was, "Rosa Mystika".. cool huh? LOL.. here are the pictures btw..

so we got home a bit earlier this time.. maybe around 11:30PM or something.. our barangay is not as big as the first one we marched, so we didn't even notice that it's done.. LOL..


btw, my sis only rented her gown cause she needs to wear black, and she doesn't have one.. so is my couz.. unfortunately, the gown brought us a lot of trouble.. DX.. when my sis returned the gown, the old hag who owns the shop shouted at her, saying to my sis and couz that they are responsible for the holes on the gown of my couz (which we are not).. my sis is such a dork when talking to old ladies shouting shit, so she did not argue.. they want us to pay for it, but my sis don't have enough money so she went home with one of the shop's helpers.. but as expected from my sis and aunt, they did not give in to it.. so they talked to her.. or maybe fought with her,, LOL..

*my aunt talking

*hindi po namin babayaran yang gown na yan kase pangit po at wala lang choice yung bata dahil kinabukasan na ung sagala at kahit kailan po eh hindi na kame magrerent dyan sa tabang!..

*boom

*busy tone..

* me LOL

*translation

*we're not going to pay for that gown because it's ugly and the kid has no choice but to wear that piece of crap cause the parade is already the next day and never you'll see us again rent any gown from your stupid shop!

LOL LOL LOL

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HOSPITAL BEDS, AIN'T MY THING

whoo! 2 days ag, i was out on a vacation for four nights and four days.. at the HOSPITAL.. i was bought there for sh*t, and i mean literal "sh*t" problems.. well, if you passed you're english exam on 6th grade, you probably caught what i mean..

first night's like hell,. we left the house at 10PM, our hospital is just 30 minutes away, and for the worst times we'd get jinxed, we were so damn unfortunate that it happened that stupid night, we ran some traffic accident, a pig jeep (or a jeep for pigs for stupidity's sake.), flipped,.. and imagine, in a four-laned freeway, pigs are scattered over the left bank of the free way, sleeping.. weird.. poor pigs.. LOL..

then by 11PM we arrive at the hospital, we went straight to the ER to get checked.. i got inside and my sis looked for a room.. after 2 hours, we're finally getting our dextrose.. my sick sis got her dextrose in a jiffy,. yours truly, was not lucky though.. i got pierced freakin' five times.. two tries from one nurse, one try from another nurse, one from a doctor, and another one from another nurse.. when the doctor who "sewed" me knew the nurses couldn't put the dextrose on me, he even talked behind the nurses and said something like "there's just going to blah blah and they can't do it blah blah..". too bad for him he was not good enough.. he falied lah! LOL.. and every time he walks past me, he never looks at me, and that made me burst into laughter.. LOL LOL LOL.. after an hour and a half, they resorted to inserting the needle on my right arm's hinge.. after all that nerve racking piercing and "oh i'm sorry" monologues of the nurses, i felt sorry for dartboards and corkboards LOL..


3PM, finally on private room.. i spent like more time on the restroom than my bed.. well i won't be generous in sharing my "bonding moments" with the toilet bowl though, LOL.. my headache's driving me nuts, and worse, our house boy who looked after me SNORED so badly that i wanted to send him home.. got me pissed..

anyway, here are some pics when at the hospital rest room, cam whoring. LOL..

and yeah.. you don't have to say it.. i look so sick and ugly.. >_<..

that's it for now.. it's past midnight, and i gotta get my ass at the dentist later.. ciao..

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WHY BLOG?

yeah! finally got myself a blog..

i seriously don't know why i made blog, but anyway, this'd be a good way to release my thoughts right? i just hope there'll be readers >_<..

well, i'm dion.. your not so typical guy you see around.. i'm extremely cunning when it comes to life, and a naturally doubtful kid.. and from my view, it's not something one should be proud of.. being too clever digs pretty much everything you hear and make you understand too much of it, that you'd wish you were dumber so you don't have to give a damn about it..

enough bout that.. aside from being a jerk at times, i also play the piano..

i used to be a church keyboardist and drummer before i got some problems with time and family.. and i'm missing it like big time.. >_<..

gonna sleep for now.. ciao..

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